Broken

16 Mar 14

"…Only God can take care, for it is He who rules the world. Since we cannot take care, since we are so completely powerless, we ought not to do it either. If we do, we are dethroning God and presuming to rule the world ourselves…" -Bonhoeffer

As I sit here in my chair writing, I can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of brokenness. My brokenness comes in two facets. I am completely broken in the worst way possible without Jesus. When I push Him away, when I take on the world by myself, when I become selfish or tempted, I am broken. I am lost. On the other hand, when I embrace Jesus, when I give Him everything I have and then some, when I am in fellowship, in devotion, in love, I am broken in the best way possible. Broken in Humility. Knowing that I am not alone; that I have a safety net around me at all times.

I think about what we are studying in church right now. To not cover your secrets, your sins, addictions and pains. Be open about who you are, find refuge in human interaction with your fellow brothers and sister in Christ. Don't be bound by anxiety, insecurity or shame. Build up one another, build relationships. As Proverbs says, as iron sharpens iron, so one brother sharpens another. I have plenty of things to hide, things that I am uncomfortable talking about, walls that I need to break down…They have been on my mind now for a few weeks, before we even started talking about them in church. The Lord has been preparing me to break down these barriers, to fight off the evil forces that are trying to take control of me. The devil lives in the darkness and he is trying to lure you in with ever step you take. Run! Run from the devil, shine your light. Where there is light, there is no darkness.

You don't have to stay broken. There is a way out of the mire, out of the pitfall that you are in. Jesus. Jesus is the only answer. Run to Him. He was there, is there and always will be there. There is nothing you can do to disqualify yourself. Jesus' love for you and me is unconditional with no end. He is waiting for you.